Publisher: Skyscape (June 1, 2015)
Genre: Fiction/Contemporary/Social Issues
Rating: 3 stars
Cover Rating: ❤ ❤ ❤
I’m the fat Puerto Rican–Polish girl who doesn’t feel like she belongs in her skin, or anywhere else for that matter. I’ve always been too much and yet not enough.
Sugar Legowski-Gracia wasn’t always fat, but fat is what she is now at age seventeen. Not as fat as her mama, who is so big she hasn’t gotten out of bed in months. Not as heavy as her brother, Skunk, who has more meanness in him than fat, which is saying something. But she’s large enough to be the object of ridicule wherever she is: at the grocery store, walking down the street, at school. Sugar’s life is dictated by taking care of Mama in their run-down home—cooking, shopping, and, well, eating. A lot of eating, which Sugar hates as much as she loves.
When Sugar meets Even (not Evan—his nearly illiterate father misspelled his name on the birth certificate), she has the new experience of someone seeing her and not her body. As their unlikely friendship builds, Sugar allows herself to think about the future for the first time, a future not weighed down by her body or her mother.
Soon Sugar will have to decide whether to become the girl that Even helps her see within herself or to sink into the darkness of the skin-deep role her family and her life have created for her.
*I received Sugar from the publishers in exchange for an honest review
Let me say that the voice of Sugar was tragic and beautiful at the same time. I just wish Sugar the book was more. So much more. My problem with this book is that it pretty much takes the easy way out of why Sugar the main character is the way she is–she eats lots and lots of sweet. Okay, yeah there are some people that are like that but not all. Some people have medical reasons or genetic reasons. Yeah I know I’m nitpicking but if you’re going to do a story about someone with weight issues please do it correctly. I don’t want people to think that reason all fat people are fat is because they are lazy. Yeah that stereotype needs to go. Cause let me tell you have some people in my family that eat healthy and exercise but still struggle with their weight. Secondly, just because you’re skinny does not always mean that you’re healthy. Just saying. Anyways, I getting off track.
Sugar is an emotional eater and pretty much her family is too blame. Her mother is a bitch that is also fat and immobile with her weight but she treats Sugar like shit. Then you have her brother skunk who is also an asshole. You get when I’m going with this right. All the characters were one dimensional. Sugar is the kind Mary Sue of the book while her mother and brother are evil and Even (not Evan) is the knight in shining armor who is also dealing with issues of his own (abusive father).
While I enjoyed the voice of Sugar and her inner monologue it got pretty repetitive about how much she wanted to eat this or that and then later feel the shame and confusion. Yes, emotional eating is a vicious cycle and the author wanted to show it but to me it was too much. I wanted to know Sugar beyond the food. Also the whole I’m going to start to lose weight because some boy likes you is a big disappointment.
It took Even and his friendship for Sugar to realize that she is more than food. That she is special in her own special way and fuck what the world has to say. I don’t understand what a boy smiling at you makes everything click and your life suddenly turns around for the better. Such b.s.
Another thing that I’m not buying is the amount of abuse that Sugar takes from her brother and mother. I personally would have left my mother’s fat vindictive ass right there in that room the first minute she hit me and ridiculed me to the point of tears. I mean with all those family members Sugar has plus her older brother Henry–why did it take her so long to leave. This is a spoiler but I just have to put this out there. Skunk her no good brother punched her in the face. I’m sorry but that’s unacceptable. Maybe people go through this in real life. Okay people do go through this is real life but I just can’t buy that Sugar would just accept it when she had so much family that she could have called. Especially her brother Henry who lived in the same area.
Hell Henry knew what the hell was going on why didn’t come and get her?
With that being said, Sugar is mixed bag. On the one hand you’re rooting for Sugar and you want everything to get better and for her self-esteem to shine through. Yet at the same time I found the writing juvenile and more of a creative writing project and less of a book.
Still if you want to know what it’s like for a fat person, specifically a teenager girl I recommend Sugar. It will give you a hint of what it’s like but don’t look for anything deep. More of the superficial feelings that a fat person goes through when in school or out and about in society. Cliche.Yes that is the word.
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