So I’m not one for sharing things. It takes a long time for me to open up. And I do mean a long time to open up to people. But I don’t think you can be a blogger and not share a little part of your life–personality with the public. So here is a little something about myself. Enjoy and tell me what you think.
That quote has saved my life one than more—that and reading. Sorry but I don’t have all of my shit together. I mean who does? It’s just that when things go downhill for me I can’t quite handle it so well. On top of that I have real bad anxiety to the point that I don’t like being around people. It’s not that I don’t like people—it’s just that I can’t be around people. I start to panic and get nausea and sick. At first my mother thought I was just shy but as I got older it turn out to be more than that.
Thinking that I’m a failure for not being able to speak or hang out with a crowd, dark and terrible thought enter my mind. I constantly questioned my existence. I still do to this day but its way better. So much better. I know it’s not my fault that I’m a tad bit…weird. Yeah I’m coming with weird. You can call it what you want put I’m sticking with weird.
Anyway, along came Myspace. You still remember that site right? It wasn’t that long ago that this site was hella popular. It was the Facebook before Facebook. Well it help me a lot. I was able to be myself and interact with people. Chat it up and laugh at the stupid things that people word on the Inter-web. No more dizzy spells or sweaty palms or panic attacks. I was able to be me the way that I wanted to be me without all the pressure of being around live breathing humans.
It was fun RPing (Role-playing) talking about the latest in music and movies. Hearing people thoughts about certain books and video games. I was in my element but the high wouldn’t last for long. Slowly, I the downward spiral began again. Thankfully a little know book by the name of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone came into my life and rejuvenated my passion for reading. I’m proud to say that I haven’t stopped reading yet.
This is why I’m trying my hands at blogging. No it’s not to get free books from publishers or anything like that. Yes the perk would be great but I’m doing this to keep myself sane and to interact once again with the public. To have my voice heard just like the millions of others out there. To belong to a community that understands what it’s like to skip the club and curl up on your couch with a good book. Or deciding how many books you can actually fit in your suitcase while on vacation. This are the problems that face booknerds all across the world. I’m just happy to be a part of it.